There was a theme that kept resurfacing. Every single one of them talked about it as if it was a curse. I had similar thoughts and feelings when I was there too.
I don’t want to keep coming back to the same story, but it keeps resurfacing, it just won’t drown. Things were challenging at that time, there were several highs and lows. Those highs, they were nothing that I had experienced, they were exhilarating, my heart would beat quickly, and my breaths would feel so light. Those lows, however, felt like I had an anchor around my heart dragging me down. I couldn’t breathe, and the pain was also nothing like I had experienced, it was as if I wasn’t in control, and I wasn’t.
My soul feels crushed, to hear you, tell yourself you are undeserving. That you refrain from the pain because its intolerable, it will send you back to where you ran away from.
Soft, kind, and gentleness is all to be offered and received.
Gentleness and care is all there was,
They both waited to be found on the lavender
On this patch of land, there were wildflowers. Gentleness and care were deeply rooted. I couldn’t see it for myself,
“As nature seeks to tell us, we cannot permanently be in flower.”
Scattered across there were hints of purple. These were wildflowers, cared for with gentleness and love. In the middle of the field, I stood dumbfounded, I did not know where I was. A soft voice spoke, and as I looked up, I was greeted with a smile that pierced my attention. You’re eyes matched the scenery and held all the tinctures of green, gold, and black. You took me in your fingers so calmly, pointed to the sea, the sky, the boulders, grass, and the field you had just picked me from. This wasn’t just a flower field, but everyone that has ever cherished and attended to me. You place me back carefully and make sure my roots hit the dirt.
It’s no longer February and I’ve grown about two inches. Those around me keep watering me. Those around me take in the sunshine, and while sometimes the heavy clouds tell the sun to take a break, there is still love to grow from.
Im gonna speak to you about life. Whether you
BRENDA SERRANO 
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